sign of recovery
i just noticed a sign today (11/25/01)
something felt totally wrong… as i thought about it, i realized that my hand was warm - right to the fingertips! it was the oddest sensation.
for years i've had cold hands, even in the summer (and as cold as they were in the summer, they'd be like icicles in the winter). it was so pronounced that nearly everyone who ever felt them would remark on it.
i got used to either brushing it off with "cold hands, warm heart" or explaining that they had gotten frostbitten years ago, and never really felt warm since. and i've always believed that the frostbite i suffered 25 years ago really was responsible for the poor circulation in my hands.
this morning i was reading, and i had my head sort of "propped up" on my left hand (you know - elbow on the arm of the chair, left cheek resting on left palm) and something felt totally wrong... as i thought about it, i realized that my hand was warm - right to the fingertips! it was the oddest sensation.
i stopped by my sister's house this afternoon to drop off a book i thought she'd enjoy, and she invited me in for a cup of coffee. i accepted, and, as we were talking, something reminded me of this morning - i walked over to her and put my hand on her cheek, and she said, "my god! your hand is warm!" then she reached up and put her hand on my cheek, and said my face felt warm, too (which apparently it didn't use to).
she told me that her husband, dean, had remarked on thanksgiving (after i'd left) that i actually seemed to have some color to my face since i quit smoking, and said she'd noticed the same thing. she said my face used to be so pale, i always looked a little bit sick...
guess i'm getting better! (don't know why i'm so tweaked about this, but i am...)
kevin - day 6