for some reason, i couldn't get on-line last night after work (although i was still getting e-mail), so i thought i'd check in this morning to let you all know that i made it through day one!! (sounds of crowds cheering, trumpets sounding)
this morning i feel drained, but triumphant! I DID NOT GIVE IN! and that’s going to make it so much easier to make it through today; i’ve got what feels like an enormous investment in this quit, and i’m not going to get stupid and throw that away for any reason.
as i said in my last couple of posts from work, there were only about 3 or 4 really bad craves during the day, and i was able to ride them out.
last night, there were a couple more bad ones between dinnertime and bedtime, but what really surprised me were the two that woke me from a sound sleep (around 1:30 am and again around 5); i don't remember this ever happening before in previous quits. i guess the demon is that much stronger now...
those were tough; i woke in a cold sweat both times, and laid there for what seemed like hours, choosing not to feed the demon (at least not right this moment) over and over again until i fell back to sleep, exhausted.
this morning i feel drained, but triumphant! I DID NOT GIVE IN! and that's going to make it so much easier to make it through today; i've got what feels like an enormous investment in this quit, and i'm not going to get stupid and throw that away for any reason.
many thanks to debi, Chrissy, Lynne, Anne, Jerilyn, Rosemary, and all the others who have been so supportive of my efforts here - i'm sorry if i spelled anyone's name wrong, and i also apologize to those i've left out of the above list - you've all been tremendously helpful, and words really can't express my gratitude.
kevin - day two (putting one foot in front of the other)